Greg O’Grady considers himself a Professional Stutterer who specializes in Covert Stuttering. In 2017 Greg retired after a 35-year career in management with the City of Toronto Seniors Services and Long-Term Care (SSLTC) Division. After retirement, he returned to his home province of Newfoundland. While in Toronto, Greg received treatment from the Speech and Stuttering Institute for his severe stutter. As a way of giving back and paying it forward, in 2012 he established …‘A million things I need to say 1K/ 5K Walk, Run and Roll for Stuttering Awareness’, in support of the Speech and Stuttering Institute. In 2018 Greg established this Event in Newfoundland. In 2018 Greg co-founded The Newfoundland and Labrador Stuttering Association, a not-for profit Association whose Mission is Support and Advocacy for People Who Stutter. In 2021 Greg co-founder and is Host of the Some Stutter, Luh! Newfoundland and Labrador First Podcast about Communicating Differently. SSL!’s message is about BLOCKS. BLOCKS that manifest as more than mere vocal hesitations. BLOCKS are also social practices that confine the limitless potential of those who dare to defy societal norms. |
Greg’s video presentation aims to shed light on his lived experience of “ONE SIZE DOES NOT FIT ALL” struggles as a youth, adolescence, adult and now as a senior, with self disclosure and self acceptance as a covert stutterer and how his struggles with self acceptance affected his self-concept, self-esteem, identity, individuality and mental health. Dissecting and revisiting his lived experience as a covert stutterer, continues to shed light on what happened in his life and why it happened in his life. ‘Shocker Alert’; Greg considers his “ONE SIZE DOES NOT FIT ALL” journey as a covert stutterer, as a blessing in disguise. A journey that helped him discover his authenticity as a stutterer.
He hopes that by sharing his lived experience as a covert stutterer will help other people who stutter foster awareness, understanding, education, and acceptance of stuttering and to realize that it’s “OK” to STUTTER”.
Hello Greg
I was amused to see you describe yourself as a ‘professional’ covert stutterer – I have thought of myself as the ‘king’ of covert stutterers and somewhat as a specialist! I was not quite clear though whether you still consider your self a covert stutterer to some degree in some situations. Were you still avoiding somewhat on your video?
I totally agree with you that covert stuttering is a betrayal of authenticity, although understandable and forgiveable. In line with the ironies and enigmas of stuttering I consider my covert stuttering also to be an authentic description of who I am now. Self-disclosure and self-acceptance of myself as a covert stutterer has been good for me.
I too have suffered from anxiety and depression – and in many ways these have been a bigger problem than the stuttering.
I have also been exhilarated at being able to openly stutter.
I attach a video that I hope you like.
Best Wishes
Tim
PS I have no idea what ‘Stutter, Luh’ means……can you explain?
https://stamma.org/your-voice/tims-vlog-stammering-avoidance
Thank you Tim for your feedback. To answer your question about the meaning of SSL!, The Story Behind The SOME STUTTER, LUH! (SSL!) Name ….. Dr. Paul De Decker Associate Professor of Linguistics at Memorial University, Creator and Production Manager of SSL!, and a significant Ally of the Newfoundland and Labrador Stuttering Association and PWS, suggested this name. He knew that we needed a name that appealed to Newfoundlanders and Labrador. Being a Professor of Newfoundland English and Newfoundland English dialects, he looked into the dictionary of Newfoundland English and thought the use of some and luh would make sense in this context. So some stutter luh is just a play on a number of Newfoundland English features. “Some” can refer to a group of people as in there’s “some” people. So it refers to the idea that there are some people who stutter and it also has the double meaning and has the other meaning in Newfoundland English as an intensifier. It intensifies, it modifies nouns. So stutter being the noun, some stutter means some great, some magnificent stutter. And then on the other side of things we have, luh and luh is just a tag that is put on the ends of phrases. Some people say it means love and could also mean look. So some stutter luh means, “hey, look at this magnificent stutter”. And Dr. De Decker figured this would make sense. Given that we’re in Newfoundland and Labrador, people are going to know what it means. Other examples of SOME intensifier’s; Some feed, luh!, Some boat, luh!, Some fish, luh!, Some catch, luh!, Some waves, luh!, Some wind, luh!, Some storm, luh!, Some rain, luh!, Some weather, luh!, Some good, luh!, Some nice, luh!, Some tasty, luh!, Some fish & brews, luh!, Some black puddin, luh!, Some home brew, luh!, Some place, luh!, Some price, luh!, Some pretty, luh!, Some handsome, luh! etc.
Regarding your question about whether I consider myself a covert stutterer in some situations and if I was avoiding while reading, to provide you with “just a glimpse” into my story, I still consider myself a stutterer. Like other covert stutterers, I was a specialist in many yesteryears of camaflouging and self sabotaging dysfunctional behaviours in order to hide my severe stutter. The ugly head and my desire to hide my stutter is always there ready to raise its ugly head. I introduce myself as a Professional PWS, who specialize in Covert stuttering, is my way reminding myself that I am a PWS who stutters, and of the temptation for me wanting to hide my stuttering. I still struggle with the ‘F’ word, fluency. As we know, stuttering is fluid. If you listen to my SSL! Podcasts, my stuttering is fluid when speaking and reading. Yet, during these fluid situations, I have accepted that It’s OK to stutter. I’ll give a shout out to the Speech and Stuttering Institute in Toronto, where I received treatment for my severe stuttering. As a lifeline, SSI was and continues to be a lifeline helping me manage my severe stuttering.
Thank you for sharing your video. I’m always in awe when listening to other PWS lived experiences, all of which are so empowering and inspirational.
Tim, there is som much to chat about the sadly neglected, mental health realm of stuttering. I invite you for a SSL! Guest Conversation. If interested, message me your email and I’ll email you recording details. Thank you again for your feedback; much appreciated. Greg
Dear Greg
Great to hear from you – with your very comprehensive answer to my question! I fully understand.
I am interested in mental health issues and stammering so here is my email as requested.
shanksfamily@sky.com
I look forward to hearing from you.
Bye for now
Tim
Great to see a contribution from you, Greg!
Thank you Dan. 😊
Hi Greg,
Great contribution. I too was a Covert stutterer for many. many years until I just couldn’t stand the lack of authenticity anymore. I grew tired of pretending to be someone I was not. It was too much effort to change words, or avoid altogether, which was my “go to” choice.
I am much happier now that I stutter openly. I have learned to not care as much about what I think others are thinking.
What does “Luh” mean?
Pam
Thank you Tim for your feedback. To answer your question about the meaning of SSL!, The Story Behind The SOME STUTTER, LUH! (SSL!) Name ….. Dr. Paul De Decker Associate Professor of Linguistics at Memorial University, Creator and Production Manager of SSL!, and a significant Ally of the Newfoundland and Labrador Stuttering Association and PWS, suggested this name. He knew that we needed a name that appealed to Newfoundlanders and Labrador. Being a Professor of Newfoundland English and Newfoundland English dialects, he looked into the dictionary of Newfoundland English and thought the use of some and luh would make sense in this context. So some stutter luh is just a play on a number of Newfoundland English features. “Some” can refer to a group of people as in there’s “some” people. So it refers to the idea that there are some people who stutter and it also has the double meaning and has the other meaning in Newfoundland English as an intensifier. It intensifies, it modifies nouns. So stutter being the noun, some stutter means some great, some magnificent stutter. And then on the other side of things we have, luh and luh is just a tag that is put on the ends of phrases. Some people say it means love and could also mean look. So some stutter luh means, “hey, look at this magnificent stutter”. And Dr. De Decker figured this would make sense. Given that we’re in Newfoundland and Labrador, people are going to know what it means. Other examples of SOME intensifier’s; Some feed, luh!, Some boat, luh!, Some fish, luh!, Some catch, luh!, Some waves, luh!, Some wind, luh!, Some storm, luh!, Some rain, luh!, Some weather, luh!, Some good, luh!, Some nice, luh!, Some tasty, luh!, Some fish & brews, luh!, Some black puddin, luh!, Some home brew, luh!, Some place, luh!, Some price, luh!, Some pretty, luh!, Some handsome, luh! etc.
Hello Greg,
Thank you for sharing your insight. When you said something along the lines of being in a world that doesn’t always want to listen, resonated with me. I also liked your idea of Blocks and how everyone has them, even if they don’t present the same way (such as a verbal block). This is true, there are inner demons that we all fight to overcome so we can come to honor and love ourselves. I am happy for you that you and your successful journey with stuttering, though I can only imagine how difficult some moments might have been.
I liked your comment about being a professional stuttering. I am a graduate student, studying to be an SLP and one of our assignments was to pseudo-stutter. As a person who doesn’t stutter, I was learning to stutter and how I can use this as a therapeutic technique with clients when appropriate. I still need a lot of practice.
Anyway, thanks again for sharing your story!
Thank you for you comments. Volunteer stuttering is often used to help people who stutter with stuttering acceptance. Check this technique out.
What an amazing journey you’ve been on, and how wonderful to see you’re paying it forward! When the ISAD is over I’d love to stay in touch. Some stutter, some dont’, and we’re good enough either way.
Happy ISAD and keep talking
Anita
Thank you Anita for your comments. Just a gentle reminder about SSL! Guest Conversation Invitation. 😊
Hi Greg,
I have yet to hear a senior’s experience with stuttering, so thank you for sharing yours! It was cool to see how your stuttering journey has evolved over the years. I love your positive outlook on your stutter, yet still discussing the negative experiences you’ve faced. I agree with you that other people have blocks on the idea of stuttering, which I can imagine has been really hard. I love that you are still able to “embrace your block” thought this all! This was inspiring to listen to and I will try my best to spread truth to reduce others blocks on stuttering.
Thank you Katie for your comments. Definitely it has been quite the journey. As I look back now, my stutter has been both a nemesis and a blessing. My stutter has introduced me to a global friendly and welcoming community world of support. 🎉
Hi Greg!
Thank you for your submission! I enjoyed learning about your journey as a person who stutters. Thank you for your explanation of all the different ways a block can manifest in someone’s life. As an SLP graduate student, your post has helped me understand how I can take a more holistic perspective in treatment to best help my clients. Thank you again!
Em
Thank you ‘Em for your comments. Wishing you much success on your journey as a SLP. It’s great to hear your perspective on holistic person stuttering treatment. 👍